La Di Da

lol I'm new to this and I have no idea what I'm suposed to type here....

But I guess I'll just vent....

Life is so freakin hard, I need a JOB!!!!! I have a 4 month old baby who I love DEARLY- he's the only reason I haven't jumped off the roof to my house. I'm doing my best to get my life together, I'm going to everest right now so I can pay back spelman and transfer to Georgia State. I just get frustrated at time because I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere anytime soon. I'm dependant on my parents which I HATE, I don't like to depend on anyone but ME- but I also know that if I'm going to have to depend on anybody they're at the top of the list.  I try my hardest not to be disgruntle or seem ungrateful for the help I'm getting because overall I'm content its just certain aspects of my situation that make me tick if I think about them for to long. Like my baby's father- He is so FUCKIN RIDICULOUS- excuse my language. I don't like to cuss but HE brings it out of me. He is the most irresponsible, dead beat, lazy, stupid, disrespectul, ungrateful person I know. And believe me I'd like to tell you why but I really don't want to wast my time typing about HIM for the rest of my life. Just know that he's an ass, if there ever was one.  Okay I'm done now...because I don't know where I'm going with this and I can't stand aimless typing.